Looking Forward
Friday, January 4, 2013 at 10:16AM
J. Preston in Prague

So, it's been one year today that I moved to Prague, and apparently, I need a vacation from living in Europe. Ohhhh Waahhhh!!......right? Who wants to hear it? Not you, I'm sure.

If there's one lesson that can be garnerned from my 2012, it's that there is no magical place that strips you of your worries or your cares or your responsibilities. That place is a state of mind. You can have it anywhere in the world, even in the lonliest and most drab hole. Conversely, happiness can evade you even in one of the most magical cities on earth.

Since my last blog entry was sometime in the spring of 2012, it seems that some explanation is needed. Where have I been? Based on the amount I talk to family and friends (hardly ever), you'd all think that I'd either gone native or disappeared all together. 

At the same time, the fact that my last entry was over 8 months ago seems to be somewhat self-explanatory. I have had nothing to say, nothing to share. I have been working so hard that I have made myself sick. I have turned weekends into workdays, failed to travel, failed to write, failed to live.

There's something about a blog called "The Wanderlusting Expat" that requires a certain aspirational story. "Gather 'round, let me enthrall you with a story of travel, excitement, adventure, and **wanderlust**." I don't write this blog to tell you all about my anxiety, my frustration, my depression. That's the thing about depression, you're not allowed to admit it to your husband, to your mother, even to yourself. Especially when you're depressed amidst the year of uprooting your family and moving to a city in a country you'd never been before, thinking "hey why not?" like you were 22 years old without a care in the world.

I'm not going to wade too deeply into the reasons I've not been blogging, nor am I going to pretend that I'm living the dream.  I am, however, going to try to be honest and consistent in 2013. I've decided that the one place to do that will be my blog and my writing. There are interesting things happenening over here in Prague for sure. There are revalations and happenings and encounters that would make you all laugh and cry, I'm sure. I'm going to try to tap into them more deeply this year, and every now and then look up from the cobblestones (while still trying not to trip) and admire the absolutely goregous skyline.

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